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SEMBREAK 2011

Last week me and my cousins went to Zamboanga for sembreak. We have a rest house  there near the beach. ♥ My parents didn’t go so 11 days of freedom. T’was my first time to go there. I met all of my cousins and relatives. In the house there are a lot of kidssssssss. It’s very noisy. Babies are crying nonstop. =)) It was one of my best vacations. I love the beach, its very cold and cleannnn. I also love chillin in the mall though its very far we stayed there most of the time. I slept at my uncle’s house for 2 nights went chillin with my cousins there we went to a lot of places. It was really fun !! I gained so much weight. :( Oh well. so many things happened the past few weeks. and it made me miss my boyfriend so bad, good thing we text the whole day. So, theres school again tmrw :( Im too lazy to go to school. And i really really miss John. We haven’t seen each other for 2 weeks now. And its our 2nd monthsarry on the 9th. I really want to see him. :( ohwellll I have to end this now. Bye. 

bullsht

this past few days was sick. i really need to blog this cause i can’t take it anymore, this sht is killing me. so, i found out that there are rumors spreading that i am 1 month pregnant. at first, i thought it wouldn’t be such a big deal, so i didn’t really mind cause i know it’s not true. wthe, ofcourse it’s not. so i talked to some of my batchmates about it, and they all mentioned one name. this batchmate of mine that i’m not even friends with.. i found out that she’s spreading it. so thursday morning, i talked to her asked her why she’s doing it, but then she acted like she doesnt know what im talking about so i let it pass. after a few minutes, she went infront of my classrm, screaming and crying. and i was mindblown, like wtf is happening. in the first place, if there will be anyone who’s supposed to cry and feel like shit, its me. but then she was there, screaming, saying “WHY ARE YOU BLAMING ME BLABLABLA”. a lot of people saw it.  okayyy… so the ‘fight’ started with that. okayy.. anyways.. it really is bullshit. I reported it to the teacher, i told her EVERYTHING. i even told her about the post i made in fb, and wow a lot of people liked it @-) okayy.. so.. the teacher said that the case will be under investigation, they will try to find out who started it blablabla. but atleast we all know that this girl is the one who’s spreading it.. okay. so you might think it’ll pass right away or whatsoever that this is not a big deal. but srsly, if you’re in my position, fck i dont even want to go to school anymore. just by walking at the hallway alone, scares me. cause i know these people knows about the rumor. people now thinks that im pregnant. WTF. its bulsht. this sht is ruining my reputation. srsly. so i thought it’s only in my batch, but i heard from other people that even students in higher batches are talking about the rumor, talking about me. saying im a slut blablabla. that there’s this girl in 1st yr that is pregnant blaabla

all my friends/teachers are telling me not to mind it anymore.. that things will end soon. that i’m the victim, that they will know who started it blabla. they’re making me feel as if it is just that easy. cause its not. i dont even know how to handle this shit anymore. i dont want to go to school anymore. i dont even want to go out of my room. i dont feel like talking to talk to anyone. people are now talking about me, that im fucking pregnant. wtf, im not!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont even know if anyone understands me right now. i dont know who to talk to about what im feeling right now. i dont know if i can even trust anyone anymore.. i dont know.. uhhhh.. :((

hello! i’m aisha & i have very low self esteem :( ohwell. i want to be a flight stewardess someday! I wan’t to travel the world with someone i love. i want to experience new things! I want to see the world from a different perspective! I’m into photography but i’m not.. yet good at it! :-j i want to be a painter someday, though i’m not good at art. soon, i’m going write my own story and let it publish. (how i wish) HAHA. i just felt like writing things tonight! ohwell. Someday, i’m going to be happy. Really really really happy. :) 

April 14 @ My house ; Mommy Christine ! 

she’s currently staying in Korea cause of family issues, she’s suppose to stay there for 2 years. i cried so hard when i found out about it. i just met her this summer but we already became CLOSE friends. I trust her so much. I tell her Every single thing about me. I do almost everything with her. I miss her so much. I’m glad that her mom made up her mind, and she’ll be going back here next week. We will be schoolmates and we’ll stay in the same building! I’m glad I’ve found someone like her. She’s always there for me, and she never left my side. I miss her so much. :( i can’t wait to see her next week! follow her awesome blog! http://purplegumx3.tumblr.com/ :)

December 17 @ Boni High; Meet Hazel & Kim ♥ 

2 of my closest friends in class. I miss you both so much. We don’t get to hang out this summer cause of our busy schedules and I can’t wait to see you next month! How i wish we’ll be classmates again! i know you guys can’t read this cause you don’t have tumblr, anyways, i miss our bonds :( xoxo

BATCH PARTY, ‘11. CSA. I miss my classmates! see you next school year! >:D<

May 14 @ Glo. Hello, @lovefever. I LOVE YOU, ATE MASH ♥